Must suck to be so heartless.

Good luck finding anyone this fearless.

Funny FUNNY funny how some people can make you feel like you are lowest creature on this earth, when in your heart you feel like you just did the right thing. But that feeling is completely covered up with the clouds of his lies and selfishness. 

Coming out of that little storm is almost as dangerous as getting into it in the first place.

But the power is back, the lightening that once burned so bright and powerful is now back in my finger tips. How the hell did I lose myself so quickly? When have I ever thought a man could offer me more happiness than I could find myself on my own damn time? It's amazing how you can stop yourself and think, "wow, this is different. Thus guy could be different. Let me let my guard down, let me give this a chance." And then you lose control. You lose yourself. You fucking lose the game.

So here's my message to you, latest dick to enter my life, since you're not man enough to hold a simple conversation with me. I said "this won't take long..." He said, "I know, because I'm going to bed."

You think you're special? You think you're so above me that you can do what you please with me? Lead me to believe you care about me, then when you're faced with a few questions, you stumble all over yourself to avoid any sort commitment. But it was so easy for you to make sure I knew you "wanted to be with" me. That would be keep me around just bit longer, right? Long enough for you to decide how to play the next set? Yeah well maybe I'm A LOT smarter than you thought, pal. Your other girls on the side would definitely not want that dick as much if they knew you were "with" someone else, would they? That's why you never want to make those god forbidden decisions. 

I said I liked you enough to try and be with you. That's a big thing for me. Haven't done that in over a year. You took me out with your entire family, and met mine. You dangled every possible thing that I wanted in my face. How could you not expect me to mention something as amazing as just moving forward? All you could get out of that mouth of your's was, "I'm not ready. I'm doing this on my time, not yours."

Well have fun living life all for your selfish self, pal. I wanted to give you what you always said you wanted, it's your own fault you weren't man enough to take me for what I was. I walked out of your house because you were being a ROYAL DICK to me. Call it dramatic if you want, but I'm just not keen on being around people who insist on acting like their shit is so important that they don't have to look me in the eye, or even stay in the same room with me while I'm trying to talk. I was as respectful to you as I could have been. I was always a lady with you. I always wanted to make sure you were happy. Yet you had no problem yelling that it was my fault it was happening, then leaving me standing alone in my own tears. You left me standing there knowing that you had put the idea in my head that you did nothing wrong, that is was all my fault.

Well fuck that. It wasn't my fault. You were just trying to make sure the attention was off you, and on me. Hiding those secrets so safely. I take responsibility for making the ludicrous mistake of even giving you my time. You did nothing but waste a perfectly good heart. When you spoke of your pain, I listened. When you told me what you couldn't handle, I stopped. But when I offered myself to you, you broke me down. And had no problem with it. Then you have the nerve to tell me I went crazy.. it was all me. You're done. You had no effect on me. When I fall, I land on my feet.  I know who I am. I know what I am capable of, and men like you will never deserve a woman as strong and passionate as I. 

So go ahead, take your drugs, and drown away in your loneliness. I'll be making music, I'll be making dreams come true. 

I told you that I wanted you and never asked for nothing, now all I wanna do is tell you that I'm over you.